I was lucky today. I woke up at 4:30 am, a full two hours before my alarm would have woken me, and I couldn’t get back to sleep.
Why in the heck would I say that’s a good thing? Well, I couldn’t sleep because I was excited to start my day. I was excited to get up and go to work. I was excited to help lead a new team of extremely talented individuals who share a common goal, and love what they do. I was excited to write during my lunch break. The ideas in my head kept flip-flopping between plot ideas, or the wording of a certain scene, to ways I could work to make our school’s curriculum stronger, or things I could do to enhance the student experience and make their learning more enjoyable.
I was excited to work, and to learn… and for the first time in a very long time, today the work I do felt like play.
Now, I wish I could say that this was a natural thing for me, but I’d be lying if I did. I’m not the guy that goes to work every day and loves every second and can’t stop smiling, and has a great attitude. I wish I was. Maybe sometimes I am, but it’s not often enough.
So what did it?
Well, some old advice I was given finally started to sink in. I finally accepted that I can’t control life, but I can control my response to it. That wasn’t it, though. You can make that choice, and respond positively to some pretty crappy situations. That’s called denial.
This wasn’t denial. It was something else.
I decided I wasn’t just going to sit around and respond to what was happening to me. I was going to respond preemptively to shape the things that I wanted things to happen.
So far I have a team of happy colleagues, our projects are running on time (some are even ahead of schedule), and I’ve been WRITING.
This was a great thing to realize, but it was only part of the equation. The other piece was this; I realized that sometimes God might expose me to some challenging times in life. Financially, emotionally, you name it. My family has been through the wringer this year. But in an almost childish way, I started to think about how God uses the least of these to do great good in the world. I thought, “Hey, perhaps my *insert unexpected home repair here* will provide the financial blessing that some family needs right now.” And maybe it won’t. You can absolutely believe that. I’m just here to say that the simple shift in my attitude, and how I view the world, has made this a wonderful week so far.
I hope the rest of yours will be as well.